Gripping Fear
Posted by Jana Groscost Matthews | Filed under Jana Matthews, Manifesting, Self Healing, Transformation, Transmutation
The swimming pool was a welcome relief from the sweltering summer heat. After a long day at work, my dad and I cooled ourselves in the neighborhood pool. We swam here several times a week, but tonight was different, my dad encouraged me to jump off the high dive. I looked at him in terror.
Over the summer I had mastered jumping and finally diving off the lower board, but this new request was scary! The high dive was SO high. From the pool, the platform looked like it was a million miles away. I could see other kids climbing the ladder to the platform and wanted to join them. But there was that little voice in my head telling me, “It’s too high, it’s too scary, this isn’t safe, you’ve never done something like this before!”
Finally with a lot of coaxing from my dad I reluctantly climbed the ladder. I made it to the platform and froze. The ground was so far away. The platform was moving from the wind and rebounding from other people jumping. My heart raced. Paralyzed with fear, I stood there as my white knuckles gripped the handrail. The kids behind me were encouraging me to go, but I couldn’t move. Trying to find the courage to jump, I let a couple of kids go in front of me. There wasn’t any reason I should do this. It’s scary and I don’t like feeling this way. Finally as tears welled up in my eyes I felt defeated. Fear won. I climbed back down the ladder.
Ah, good, back on solid ground. I’ll just swim for a while and forget I ever tried that. My dad was relentless. Like many parents he used guilt and shame to get me to do something. “Look at those kids up there, they’re doing it, you can too!” I kept resisting. Next came the bribe, I’d get a candy bar if I successfully jumped. Hummm… the pot got sweeter! Mustering up the courage, I climbed the ladder again. Legs shaking, heart racing, knuckles still white, I gripped the handrail and inched toward the end of the board. I stopped in fear. The handrail didn’t extend to the edge of the board. At some point I had to let go of it and walk out onto a bouncy board. My heart wanted to do this, but my hands wouldn’t let go. I edged back to the ladder and safety.
It was getting late and dinner was waiting. Oh good, it’s over, I’m safe!
A couple of days later we were back at the pool and back to my source of fear. But this time my dad encouraged both my younger brother and me to jump. Richard didn’t even hesitate. He climbed the ladder and walked off the end of the board. Rats! He did it! Even though he didn’t say anything, he taunted me with his actions. Wait, didn’t he think about how scary the jump would be? Didn’t he think he might hit the bottom of the pool? Didn’t he think he might die because he was underwater a long time? Pressure mounted for me to be next.
I took a deep breath, saying to myself, “You can do this, Richard just did it! Are you going to let him show you up?” There’s nothing like a little competition to motivate me. I reached the platform. I walked to the end of the handrail. I’ve been here before, but it was going beyond this point that scared me. With my heart racing, I still had to make the trek to the end of the board without the support of the handrail. My shaking legs began bouncing the board. With each step I wanted to retreat to the safety of the ladder, but I kept telling myself, “I’ve got to do this!”
When I reached the end of the board I heard the faint echo’s of my dad and brother’s voice, “Jump.” I’m not sure what happened next. Did I jump? Did I fall? Splash, I hit the water. A moment of terror engulfed me as I swam to the surface. Stunned and shocked I swam towards to side of the pool. Richard and my dad were screaming with excitement. I did it! I jumped off the high dive and survived!
I probably jumped off the high dive another twenty times that day. A few days later I began diving off it, and finally diving off and swimming underwater to the other end of the Junior Olympic sized pool. Even though I didn’t realize it at the time I faced some very big fears that day; fear of the unknown, fear of death, and fear of my little brother beating me!
Remembering moments like this and drawing from them has helped me face other circumstances in my life where fears cropped up. Fears are a defense mechanism set up by the ego. It’s the voice inside saying, “This is different, what will happen if I try it? What if I fail? I don’t want to disappoint myself. I don’t want to disappoint others. I don’t want to feel ashamed for failing. I would be better off playing it safe!”
But living in safety of our past experiences doesn’t help us reach new goals.
Einstein said, “Insanity is doing the same thing expecting different results.”
The ego is the voice inside that wants to keep us safe. But the false perception of safety set up by the ego is based upon our past experiences – both successes and failures. The ego plays upon past failures, experiences, and perceived threats to preserve itself.
In a split second my fear of the unknown, death and falling was overshadowed by my younger brother doing something I was scared to do. I couldn’t let him do that! The voice in my head (the ego) was overpowered by my heart’s desire overcome my fears. Being a little kid at the time I didn’t know what fears were. But I know what they are now. I know how they paralyze my actions if I allow it.
Fear = Resistance
Resistance isn’t about the change it’s about fear of the “unknown.” The unknown is this black hole; we are blind to the possibilities because the ego’s first response is fear. What if I get hurt? What if I fail? What if I disappoint myself, again? What if I disappoint others?
Do you remember a time you when you feared trying something new? Were you able to overcome your fears? After you did it, did you ask yourself, “Why did I wait so long to try this?”
What fears are holding you back from getting what you want? Join us for the upcoming “Living an Empowered Life” 3-week teleseminar held Tuesdays, September 6, 13, 20, 2011 and learn how to overcome your fears so they no longer stop you.
Tags: change, emotional healing, emotional release, emotional wounding, failure, fear, goals, healing, jana matthews, manifest, Manifesting, self healing, success, Transformation, transmutation
Self-created Limitations, Manifesting, & God
Posted by Jana Groscost Matthews | Filed under Inner Alchemy, Manifesting, Transformation
“The unfortunate condition in human consciousness that keeps individuals in their self-created limitations is their attitude which fears or ridicules that which it does not understand. A thing may not be probable under certain human conditions, but the God-self which is the Great ‘Light’ can change all human conditions, so nothing is impossible.”
Godfre’ Ray King wrote these words in his book Unveiled Mysteries after experiences with Ascended Master Saint Germain on Mount Shasta in the 1930′s. Those words today ring as true as they did almost 80 years ago.
So many people limit their outcome unsure of how to manifest what they really want. When the conscious mind cannot see or figure out the solution it denies the possibilities. The mind is trained through our experiences and when something is new or different it closes off the possibility in disbelief.
We all have unlimited resources available to us by tapping into God’s reservoirs. We are awakening our spiritual gifts which include mastery over our lives. What does that mean to master our lives? We do this by calling upon our experiences and talents in this or any other lifetime to manifest perfection in this lifetime.
For centuries we have believed that we are separate from God. But this lie or illusion is created by the mind and ego that keeps us believing we are separate from God. Mastery comes when we continuously acknowledge our God essence within us at all times. This means that each time you feel fear or lower frequency emotions you acknowledge them and then remind yourself you are the “Essence of God.”
Our God Flame or Light is constantly dwelling within us but the human ego has diminished the power of this flame because it is intangible. To “see” this Light again we must build our belief by continuously remind ourselves of this connection and allow it to grow. The ego fears this because it must surrender to an unknown. True manifesting occurs when we surrender.
Try an experiment for the next 30-90 days. Remind yourself many, many times each day that you are Divine and visualize your God-Flame within you building and shining brightly. You’ll begin to transform your physiology by creating a new path for neurotransmitters in the brain to travel. This in turn changes your results.
Like anything the more you practice, the more proficient you become at it. Imagine if you became very skilled at manifesting. The great mystery in manifesting comes from one simple process, re-connect with your inner God-self and surrender to the process. Seems so simple doesn’t it? Check out Godfre’ Ray King’s book Unveiled Mysteries in My Recommened Reads widget on the right – it’s an amazing read!
Tags: alchemy, ego, emotional healing, fear, God, God's Flame, limitations, Manifesting, possibilities, power, surrender, transform
Wealth Tip: Celebrating Abundance
Posted by Jana Groscost Matthews | Filed under Healthy, Wealthy & Wise Tips, Manifesting
Most people have hang ups about money. They would rather talk about anything other than money. One of the number one questions I’m asked is about money. People fear it.
When people focus on the fear and scarcity of money they cannot attract more of it – they actually repel it and stop the flow of more coming to them. Our body can only hold one vibration at a time. If the vibe held is that of scarcity only a little will flow in; if the vibe is “enough to get by” then that amount flows in; if the vibe is one of “abundace” then the flow is continuous. To get what you want, you have to project what you do want. Your thoughts and feelings have to align with the goal in order to get it.
A small shift in your vibration manifests big results. We want to retrain your brain and body for abundance.
1) Most people feel anxiety with the “word” money, so replace it with the words abundance or prosperity. With an emotional charge of anxiety or stress behind “money” plain and simple, you will not attract more.
2) Stop saying or writing affirmations that you discount with your thoughts, beliefs, and feelings. If you say an affirmation such as “I am wealth” and the voice inside your head says, “Then why is my bank account empty,” then you’ve negated the higher frequencey vibe with a lower one of scarcity. The Universe doesn’t have a bank account, it supplies what we need when we need it.
3) Celebrate your abundance. Each time you “receive” abundance celebrate at that moment. You find a dime on the ground, celebrate at that moment with gratitude. You have to buy something, when you get to the store you find it on sale – celebrate it. You park your car and find money still on the meter – celebrate. Someone pays for something unexpectedly – express gratitude to the Universe for supporting you.
4) Gratitude – each time you pay your bills express gratitude instead of begruding the situation. We all have stuff we have to pay for – housing, utilities, food, clothes, cars, etc. You may spend every cent on your living expenses and have a choice to be gratful for the money to pay for them or begrudge the situation. Again, holding a higher vibe versus a lower one.
5) Abundance journal – Our left brain wants to “see” that we are abundant. If it isn’t showing in the bank, create a journal to “show” your brain you are abundant. Each time you have an abundant moment whether it’s a penny or something more write it down in a notebook/journal. Within a few days your brain will see how you’re attracting abundance to you. “See I am abundant, look at what I’ve received this week!”
The more frequently you hold the vibration of abundance the more you’ll draw to you. Like attracts like. You’ll be a money magnet! Remember you can only hold one vibration at a time. The more often you celebrate and acknowledge your abundance the more you’ll attract to you. Do you choose scarcity or abundance?
Tags: abundance, fear, Manifesting, money, prosperity, scarcity, Transformation
Love or Fear?
Posted by Jana Groscost Matthews | Filed under Manifesting
Don’t believe everything you hear. We’ve all heard it before, but now take it one step further “don’t believe everything you think.” Our minds are an amazingly powerful tool. Have you mastered how to use it to support what’s best for you?
Everything is your choice; how you choose to view the world and interact with it. Do you tell yourself “It’s going to be hard, it’s going to be expensive, or it’s more than I can handle?” Many people defeat themselves before they even begin. What if you said, “It’s going to be easy.” It’s always your choice. You are more POWERFUL than you could ever imagine. What choices will you make today?
To prepare for the manifesting, write down a list of goals or intentions you want to attract or issues you want to release during the lunar cycle. After the cycle is over, review your old list crossing off goals achieved and file it, then begin a new list for the new cycle. To maintain balance in your life, look at goals on several different levels including financial, spiritual, mental, emotional, and physically.