Mounting Frustrations
Posted by Jana Groscost Matthews | Filed under Transformation
Since the last post, I have spent some time meditating about my weight and my resistance to releasing it. For years I thought my thyroid was slow. But western doctors tell me it’s working fine. Still feeling sluggish I decided last year to step away from western medicine and take a more holistic approach to my health. I met with a Naturopath who determined my adrenal glands were working opposite of the way they should. They were under producing hormones in the mornings, making me feel exhausted throughout the day; and overproducing them at night, waking me up several times a night. Because of this pattern, my body was over producing cortisol to provide energy, but also telling my body to store fat for energy later.
The doctor gave me an herbal supplement to stimulate the adrenals in the morning and another to tone them down before bed. She also mentioned that once the adrenals were working properly the excess weight would drop off. After this discovery I thought, “Great, I finally have an answer.”
Silly me to believe it would really be that simple. My body didn’t like the herbs. The morning supplement caused migraine headaches and the night time supplement made me feel anxious, so back to the drawing board. I met again with the doctor and it was determined that my body wanted a homeopathic remedy to heal this.
For over a decade I have been studying the physical body and how it responds to our thoughts, emotions and beliefs. Our amazing bodies are a mass of moving energy. When we have consistent thoughts, emotions, and beliefs (all of which are forms of energy) that disrupt our body’s energy field, it creates a breakdown, which shows up in physical ailments. Once the thoughts and emotions are resolved, the body heals itself and returns to balance. Since my adrenal glands were functioning improperly I have been meditating on what issues caused them to be imbalanced.
One of the primary functions of the adrenal glands is to mediate the body’s stress response. According to Christian Fleche’s book The Biogenealogy Sourcebook, “Problems with the adrenal cortex and cortisol production relate to the fear of taking a wrong turn in life. Fear of having gone in the wrong direction, or being on the wrong path, whether it’s a real, imaginary, or symbolic one. The feelings of being lost may also relate to having strayed from the flock.” Louise Hay in “You Can Heal Your Life” states that adrenal issues stem from “no longer caring for the self. Defeatism.”
Hum, I’ll admit my life has been stressful; married, divorced, single mother of two toddlers, going back to work to support us, moving to California with no job, getting a job, quitting my job, starting my own business, moving again and building a new clientele, getting married, the list goes on and on. And, yes, I have second guessed my decisions on more than once occasion. In fact after looking back over the past fifteen years of my life I’ll say that I have wondered if I took a wrong turn or two (thousand). I admit that I have felt defeated by this process. It’s no wonder my body is energetically imbalanced and I’m holding onto the weight.
As the healing process occurs, our body brings our memories to the surface (in our field) for us to revisit. The memories are brought up as a reminder that we still have something to resolve. At this point we always have a choice to acknowledge them or suppress them for another time. Over the past several weeks, I’ve noticed memories from the past where I’ve questioned my decisions. To help resolve this I’ve been journaling these memories as they’ve been surfacing; reviewing my decision at the time; acknowledging my decision as the best possible solution at the time; and expressing gratitude for my progress.
The next step is releasing any emotions or beliefs to Creator, God, Universal Intelligence (or whatever you choose to call it). Sometime I do this by visualizing the energy leaving my body, or I visualize myself lying in a river and seeing the energy washing away, or I burn my journal pages releasing the energy through the fire. Once the energy is released I immediately replace it with new programming by using affirmations such as, “I am on the right path.” “I make great decisions.” I repeat the affirmation for a couple of weeks to help my brain integrate the new information and continuously reinforce my choice to make this change.
This process may seem silly to some, but the goal is to re-wire the brain’s information channels, by creating a new wiring, a new thought process and a new result. It is similar to rewriting a computer program. Each day we have a choice to re-write our lives. The past is already written, but we don’t have to re-live it. Each day the slate is clean, a blank page ready for us to create ultimately what we want. Making changes takes courage to say, “No, I don’t want to repeat this pattern. I want something different.” Sometimes we have to review painful stuff. Once we are willing to see it again, the Universe is always there to help us remove it and replace it, instead of repeating it.
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